WORTHY IN MY CREATOR'S EYES

In this day and age we strive to be accepted by our neighbours. We want the world to look up to us and say, “Wow, what a marvellous person!” I am no different.

I have always been known as the “shy girl”, however in reality, once you get to know me, you will find that I am quite the opposite. If I am quiet, it is because I have nothing to say, I am not someone who says things willy-nilly. I absolutely loathe it when people tell me that I am shy, it feel as if they have immediately put me in a box.

My whole life I have struggled to accept myself. I have always been worried about what my neighbour thinks of me. “One day I’ll do something extraordinary and then everyone will look up to me”, I would tell myself. I put my hope and trust in people, even though I thought that it was in YHVH. Someone once told me that when we think that we are doing something or think that we have done something, then we haven’t. I realise now that trusting and hoping in the Living God is so more rewarding than trusting and hoping in people!

The truth of the matter is that people disappoint. I had an amazing friendship with a particular girl, however, we took different paths and it was suddenly as if I did not exist to het anymore. I was absolutely devastated, we had, had such a close bond and I thought that we would remain friends for years to come. I expected that we would stay in contact, even if we did not see each other often, but I soon realised that I was the one doing all the “connecting” and bending backwards to please her. This particular friend was very dear to my heart, but YHVH used this friendship to show me that my worth is not reliant on what people think and that it is impossible to place our hope and trust in humans beings. Through this I have not only been able to forgive her, but I have been able to forgive myself as well.  She will always be dear to my heart.

Friendships are extremely important, YHVH says so in His word, however no friend, boyfriend, girlfriend, sibling, parent or spouse can ever fulfil us and make us feel accepted. Only Y’shua can! YHVH has also shown me that unless we have accepted that we are worthy in Him, we will not allow others to accept us either. By saying this I mean that we will always feel inferior, no matter what other say or do.

We are worthy just who we are. Why was Y’shua so confident? He knew that He was the one and only Son of God. We can only find true acceptance in Him. We are worthy in His eyes, He created us, He knows our hearts.